Time to Kick this “Fat” in the Ass and make some cute babies!!!

Hey Y’All!  Been a bit. let’s just blame it on Life generally!

So, I have always been FAT (ranging from 80kg-105kg in the past 6-10 years). I would say my Weight-loss journey has been a roller-coaster ride, from days of being highly motivated, eating healthy and all that,  to days when I just give up and eat all sort of unhealthy food.(Pancakes and Dough-nut are my favorites during such downtime).

I remember while in full-time job, I would place order for a large bowl of Cold-stone Creamery Ice cream with fudge and chocolate. Its funny how i deceived myself then with Almond toppings(in my mind, almonds are healthy….lols). I quickly went from a hot, flat tummy, beautiful-shaped size 70-75kg to a whooping 95kg-105kg within 6years. I enrolled in gyms a couple of time but i never made it to the 3rd month before quitting.

I have also battled with PCOS & infertility( a different story for another day) for quite some time now and trust me to have visited the top OB/GYNs  in Lagos & Ibadan. They all kept saying the same thing….”Madam, you only need to loose some weight and you will be fine”. After such visits, I usually put on the “I’m gonna Kick this “Fat” in the ass” outfit but more often than none, I see myself taking it all off within a couple of weeks…….Talk about INCONSISTENCY.

I have also been the “Queen of procrastination”…. always  telling myself…” I will start next week, let me indulge all I can this week“…lols. But you know what, last night, I was in such severe back pain and leg pain that I knew deep within myself that its about time I lost this extra weight before I develop arthritis. Getting up from the bed was such herculean and painful task that I felt completely embarrassed, though, I was alone. A lot of my people tell me ” No! You are not fat, you are only Big in the right proportion”….. I always tell myself…” You better don’t be deceived”, but in the end, I usually lack the tenacity of purpose to remain consistent in keeping off the weight.

So, this morning, I looked in the mirror, told myself….” Babes, You need to get serious and loose this weight! You are your own enemy and you are the reason you haven’t got any child yet“. I also said a word of Prayer to God to help me win this battle this time around. Most especially because, I want my babies to come and I do not want any inhibition on my journey to been the best version of Me. After this short prayer, I decided to start the day with a detox of fresh-lemon infused water and this yummy plate of Goodness about 45 mins later.

Carrots, Grilled Chicken breasts, Potatoes, Bell peppers, Onions, Tomatoes, Green tea , Honey.

I have a goal of loosing a minimum of 30kg within a year and I believe All things are Possible for me because of God’s grace!

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The Wake-up Call-Starting from the Scratch!

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Is it really possible to be the Best Version of Me?  What Exactly is the Best Version of me?

I am a passionate 31 year old with a  wonderful loving husband. We have been married for more than 3 years and we still look forward to the day we will hold our babies in our hands. Its been a horrific experience waiting on God for the fruit of the womb (I should warn you here that you will also get to read a lot about how passionate I am about my Faith) and I hope to share more about my fertility journey with you from time to time.

I jokingly tell my friends and family that I do not understand the language of failure and I don’t know what it feels like to fail….. I have always come out tops of my class right from Grade school to High School.

Right after University and the compulsory 1 year NYSC Program, I got my first job in the best financial institution in Nigeria. I was earning more than enough for a young unmarried girl of 26 years old in 2011, yet I didn’t understand the language of Savings or Fit-Finance.

I got so caught up in living life and despite all my earnings, my debt  profile kept on increasing. I just could not seem to get out of debt….. Of course, I had supposed- genuine reasons for borrowing every time but looking back in retrospect, I discovered, they were all baseless and I could have done without them.

Job-wise, I was doing very well, I climbed two steps of my career in just 3 years between 2 great financial Institutions, a feat that takes most people between 6-7 years to achieve.

Then, sometimes in 2015, I started thinking about resigning for 2 major reasons; I stopped enjoying what i was doing and I so desperately wanted to venture into Entrepreneurship. I gave myself about a year more to work and earn more than enough money to fully establish the business I started. But, life, they say never tells you about its plans and twists. Precisely 2 months after the first thought of resignation came to me, I was supposed to write a compulsory short test in my new organisation that was meant to be a pre-requisite to my confirmation. I was told anyone who fails the test gets kicked out of the company.

I waved the warning off and was so confident I would beat the pass mark of 65. You can imagine how horrible i felt when I clicked ‘Submit’ and I saw ’63’. Gosh! How? 

I decided to take the test again (my last chance) in another  2 weeks. I did  and again ’64’.

For the next 5 minutes, I blacked out! I hardly fail Exams, how come I couldn’t pass this? and to think that i was just 1 mark from the pass mark….. I lost all form of confidence in myself.

I wasn’t ready to resign but I told myself, I would rather resign than be told to leave and so I waited for the right opportunity to tender my resignation (Talk about the power of THOUGHTS and WORDS!  Haven’t I been thinking and speaking about resigning for the past couple of months?) I got home that night and cried my hearts out on my husband’s chest. He told me he would support me in any decision I choose to make.

Days later, I walked into my office and typed my resignation later to be effective a month after.(I later realized the threat of been asked to leave was just to motivate employees to read and digest the content of the test but i guess my mind was still made up to resign)

What the heck? I had debt almost running into a million naira to repay and I resigned, when I could have waited 3 months max to pay off? But, i guess I didn’t know that it could be really hard to raise money especially when there is no stable source of income. Once again, I was too confident it wouldn’t be a problem.

My colleagues and friends gave me a nice send-forth and I took a last look at the grandiose complex of the Head-office Institution I have worked in for almost 1 year. A new life was about to begin……………….